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Well as you guys might have seen, I have been quite down lately, not myself...
I thought it was my family, which played a big roll, but it was school too.
Pressure everyone, peer pressure, teachers pressing, homework, do that do this, racist teachers, sick teachers, asshole teachers.
I got every single one of em.
Staying up late to finish this damn project, no one online to talk to, just feels kinda lonley eh.
Sometimes, things go through my head.
Whenever someone makes fun of me, I never take it seriously, but sometimes, just maybe, i would fake out anger, and beat the crap outa the bastard, tha go to a juevinile delinquent or something.
Blow up the school, do something bad.
Just something to keep interest in life.
Taking all these pressure, is.. really hard at the moment.
People say, you are lucky to have a roof over your head, you have everything!
No, its not interesting at all, its plain boring, and thats not how i want to go on.
I just need something to keep interest in. If any high power is up there, I really do beg to keep me interested.
I really need the Spring Break.. fast..
I guess i have to keep strong, and hold on.
I wish this random depression times will go away, or just stop staying up late doing homework. However, i will just get yelled at school, and humiliated later, making me think of it some other time when im brooding.
Maybe i just needed some unconditional love from my parents from the beginning, but too bad it has to be conditional all the time. Get good grades, praise me, get bad ones, no no, but even if i bring good grades, they dont even give a shit about it, and goes off to the bad grades and critisizes me about it.
If people realized what good the other person has done to them, the world would go much smoother. But the only thing that remains in their heads is the negative.
*sigh*
I really need to stop..
Grr...
Thanks for listening to my crap.
I thought it was my family, which played a big roll, but it was school too.
Pressure everyone, peer pressure, teachers pressing, homework, do that do this, racist teachers, sick teachers, asshole teachers.
I got every single one of em.
Staying up late to finish this damn project, no one online to talk to, just feels kinda lonley eh.
Sometimes, things go through my head.
Whenever someone makes fun of me, I never take it seriously, but sometimes, just maybe, i would fake out anger, and beat the crap outa the bastard, tha go to a juevinile delinquent or something.
Blow up the school, do something bad.
Just something to keep interest in life.
Taking all these pressure, is.. really hard at the moment.
People say, you are lucky to have a roof over your head, you have everything!
No, its not interesting at all, its plain boring, and thats not how i want to go on.
I just need something to keep interest in. If any high power is up there, I really do beg to keep me interested.
I really need the Spring Break.. fast..
I guess i have to keep strong, and hold on.
I wish this random depression times will go away, or just stop staying up late doing homework. However, i will just get yelled at school, and humiliated later, making me think of it some other time when im brooding.
Maybe i just needed some unconditional love from my parents from the beginning, but too bad it has to be conditional all the time. Get good grades, praise me, get bad ones, no no, but even if i bring good grades, they dont even give a shit about it, and goes off to the bad grades and critisizes me about it.
If people realized what good the other person has done to them, the world would go much smoother. But the only thing that remains in their heads is the negative.
*sigh*
I really need to stop..
Grr...
Thanks for listening to my crap.
